An Accident

It wasn't supposed to happen this way. It was an accident, a stupid, clumsy accident. Yeah he's hot, and of course he's charming, and I guess you could say he's a good dancer. But it wasn't how I imagined it would happen. Our eyes didn't lock, he didn't caress my cheek and pull me in gently. Nothing like that. It was sudden, and awkward, and just a complete mistake.

He was saying good-bye to everyone at the party and I was sitting near the top the basement stairs just watching . I didn't know anyone other than the host; my best friend had bounced a while ago. He passed me as he left and leaned down to say good bye and give me a peck on the cheek. Then he left. I just sat there thinking, getting lost in my head. A few moments later he doubled back. He had left his CDs and came back to get them. When he left again I went to return the peck. I wasn't trying to kiss him, I was just saying good bye. But my dumb-ass missed. I closed my eyes too soon and instead of making contact with his cheek, I landed on his lips and froze. I just met this guy. What the hell was I doing kissing him? Pulling back, I mumbled an apology and I swear I saw smoke coming from his shoes as he left.

It wasn't supposed to happen like this. It was an accident; sudden, and awkward, and just not how I wanted my first kiss to happen.